Tending the Living Images of Transformational Art
The Rose Goddess
Rose Goddess Song by Jennifer Patterson
At the end of 2003 I started to read Jung’s autobiography “Memories, Dreams, Reflections” which is a very unusual memoir of his life as perceived from his inner realms of his psyche. I was inspired by the dialogue Jung created with what he believed were wise deities from the deep psychological aspects of his conscious and unconscious. I decided to experiment with this type of inner dialogue by taking the rose theme I was painting and call upon the deity “The Rose Goddess”. I was intrigued by the idea of accessing inner wise deities that were here to assist me in co-creating my daily life. I meditated upon the Rose Goddess, asked questions and journeled responses. It was during this exploration that quickened the restructuring of my inner and outer life. The very first time I petitioned the Rose Goddess it immediately surfaced unhealthy attitudes and behaviours within myself and within my current partner at the time. Sometime soon after this, we began a process of exploring in new ways what an empowered, integrated relationship would be like. From Jung and my previous explorations, I knew that my inner psychological world was calling for a unity and integration of polarities deep within my psyche and according to current psychological thought, these polarities were represented in the energies of the masculine and feminine forces. Eventually I began to see the incredible potentiality of an empowered inner relationship and outer relationship. It was the basis for a deep sacred marriage that was co-created together. I could sense new creative artistic pursuits that would emerge from within myself and within the outer marriage. It was feeling how a creative inspiration could be intimately connected from my soul’s story that would evolve my beingness and thinking. This could only come from an integrated, sacred marriage where the inner masculine and feminine forces would nurture and support each other to where the outer relationship would evolve into a whole new level of love. This was feeling driven inspiration that I had learned to trust after many years of exploring consciousness, spirituality and meditation.
Rose Goddess Sketch
This sketch eventually led to a large painting. During the process of painting I would use active meditation to work with the archetype of the rose within myself and the painting. When I thought I completed the painting, I commissioned Jennifer Patterson to write and record a song for the painting. Rose Goddess Song by Jennifer Patterson. I recommend meditating with this song to feel the archetype of the rose. After she created the music I realized I had to change the painting. The song had led to a deeper feeling to the painting that I wanted to capture.
As I painted more detail in the painting, it felt like I was connecting to the archetype and deities that co-create physical roses. Jung’s book led to this exploration that went beyond a meditation to achieve a quietness in the mind. It developed my meditation that led from exploring the heart center energy to petitioning the wise aspects of my psyche. I felt I had learned to achieve a centeredness with the heart energy and then take the next step to co-create with a newly discovered partnership and sacred marriage with my spiritual world. I was reaching into the unknown and allowing this to emerge through me into my art and my outer life. Jung had brought this to my awareness with new clarity and brought my explorations into consciousness into a new focus.
The Rose Goddess
The Emergence of “Our Lady of the Golden Flower”
I completed the painting “Sacrum Fire” prior to the “Rose Goddess”. I wanted to do this painting because I loved the patterns of the petals of this old world rose. The rose in the photo I used for reference was of a white rose. When I tried to paint the rose white my arm would become painful and stiff. When I switched the colors to the yellows and oranges it was a freeing experience and the pain went away. It feels now that the deity of my painting “Our Lady of the Golden Flower” was co-creating with me before I even learned from Jung about petitioning deities to assist in my growth.
“Sacrum Fire” was part of the display in my show at the 2004 Mythic Journeys conference in Atlanta. At that show I guided a woman through an active meditation with this painting. The next day she thanked me because she had experienced an energy that moved through her body that opened her up. She told me she did not realize she had shut down herself to life and “Sacrum Fire” had opened her up to the passion of life. This painting has a powerful affect that opens the sacrum area and can be used in a meditation to feel the passion for life.
Grace; “Apparition of Our Lady of the Golden Flower”
The painting “Grace” is a companion painting to “Pool of Dreams” which are two paintings I used to explore the inner polarities of the masculine and feminine forces within myself. I was studying Chagall at the time and painted “Grace” after “Sacrum Fire” and prior to the “Rose Goddess”. The above close up of one section details the emergence of a female being among yellow/orange roses. In addition to exploring the masculine and feminine forces these paintings were also a time when I was exploring meditation with body energy in the major chakra areas.
I deepened this exploration by feeling the polarities within the major energy centers in the body during this time. The exploration of polarities at the body energy level moved into discovering the differences of what the masculine and feminine energies feel like within. Seeing Chagall’s paintings began to show me that within each of our psyches are these polar energies and feelings that can be differentiated into the masculine and feminine. His images led me to see how he painted from the masculine and feminine parts of himself. Several of his images were telling me how he had wanted to integrate the masculine and feminine parts of himself. I was inspired by this discovery from Chagall and in my meditations I began the exploration of integrating the masculine and feminine parts of my psyche. I was very curious to find out how these inner explorations would manifest into my outer life.
“Our Lady of the Golden Flower”
The Shamanic Journey to Direct Relationship with a Living Image
Detail of "Our Lady of the Golden Flower"
The painting “Our Lady of the Golden Flower” is a culmination of the previous paintings discussed above. This painting is the deep psychological and spiritual integration of the explorations mentioned above. The story evolved in a new way when I visited Luisa Kolker of Santa Fe in 2007. I asked Luisa to assist me in a shamanic journey to learn about what was most important for me during this time. She began her shamanic journey process with drumming and then singing while I was in a deep meditation. While in this meditation was a fluid visual state where I saw flowing golden colors that were extraordinary. Soon after this began a dialogue with a deity that called herself “Our lady of the Golden Flower”. The dialogue with her revealed that it was time to allow her to expand into my life with an open, direct dialogue. She was here to assist me in my explorations of consciousness and in my artistic pursuits. She made it clear that I would have to continue to surrender belief systems and thought forms that held me rigid in an unproductive space and that it was time to move beyond my explorations of my own consciousness. It was now for me to take my explorations into larger archetypes of the world and she would be there to assist me. As I worked on the painting below, I would move into an active meditation and petition the deity “Our Lady of the Golden Flower” to assist while I painted. I soon realized that this deity has been with me for a very long time assisting me to create living images of transformational art.
"Our Lady of the Golden Flower"
A Shamanic Journey with the Tz’utujil Maya of Guatemala
Heart of Albar
My journey moved into another depth when I committed for all of 2009 to participate and learn about the ritual activities of the Tz’utujil Maya. There is a phrase that is used in their cosmology that brings livingness to all of creation in everything around us, seen and unseen. This phrase “the heart of everything” expresses the integration of the belief that all things are alive with a soul. In my 28 years of exploring consciousness and meditation I had learned about the inner world of my psyche. I had learned when I was in unhealthy state of being driven from a disassociated inner world. My meditations no longer needed to be about clearing my thoughts and quieting the mental chatter of the mind. I can now bring the mental distractions into the compassion of the heart and allow transformation of old mental patterns that no longer serve me. Now the Tz’utujil Maya were teaching me to believe and feel “the heart of everything”. They were also teaching me to petition deities to assist me in my journey in human form to co-create with the deities of the unseen world. Now I am in the beginning realm Jung calls “individuation”. I’ve spent many years creating a foundation of an integrated psyche and now I can reach beyond my own self transformation an into co-creating with other archetypal forces. From my 28 years of exploration in these areas of depth psychology and shamanism, I know that this new foundation will bring forward continuous opportunities for self transformation. But now I can take this foundation into a new livingness and support to create a pathway for the mural project to emerge. Please see blog on the mural project vision.
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